How much time, energy do you waste contemplating, chewing on and formulating thoughts about history, politics? Another's business and how they should run their life?
The real deal is in my arms now! She inhales and exhales. She has a voice, melodious and heaven sent. Yet, my heart breaks because I realize that she has been mine for 3 years and 2 months. I have woken up to he beautiful face more mornings than the woman who carried her for nine months-whose body cocooned, nourished her despite the drugs and lack of nutrients. She was given sustaining life to develop and come to this world with 10 toes, 10 fingers, a fully developed brain, two fully developed lungs, a fully developed heart that lub-dubs, brown eyes, a mouth, teeth, lovely wavy hair like wheat and a cute little nose.
She reads now. She counts to 100. She loves all arts. She especially loves ballet. She runs, jumps, climbs and cannot wait to be outside in the sun. Most importantly she loves her family and knows she is loved. As I tucked her in last night and prayed for her and she prayed for all of her friends and each classmate by name, I broke down for you, her biological mother. My heart breaks for you because you were not given this chance as a child to be a child. To experience God's creation, God's true love. Know now that we love you and that you have given us one of the greatest gifts--to experience life and love.
My prayer has always been and will always be one wanting you to know you are unconditionally loved by at least two others in this world, a prayer hoping you one day have a real family and a prayer that you find redemption in this life.
